There are many major changes in life. One of which is moving, our current major change.  Major changes in life make me feel overwhelmed and out of control.  Major changes force me to loot at God more.  Major changes force me to evaluate life or maybe over think it...
As we have gone on the journey of "What are we doing?" this summer, I have found myself evaluating how much I truly trust God.  Yes, I know He'll provide, yes, I know He'll protect us, yes, I know He has the master plan, but... And there is is, the but, it doesn't matter what the but is its just the fact that there is one that bothers me about it all.  If I'm truly trusting God, there should be no but, right?
As I write this I question even that logic maybe there is a but so I'll continually have to say that God will provide, He does have the plan, hmmm....
I know He provides, He has kept us a float, protected us from illness, and continues to provide for us.  So my questions are how do I rest in God? Do I need to change my thinking?  How do I get rid of the but?
As I go through this major change of moving, I find myself numb.  There are times of excitement and of being scared, but most of the time I'm just moving along in neutral. Almost as if I took the time to feel anything about it my world would change too drastically or that I would just hate it too much or something.